Each day I wake up and know exactly what I am dealing with.  I am not unhappy being me.  Of course there are my dark insecurities that I try to keep at bay because I know they are insignificant, but at times they creep up and I begin to dwell.  Most of the time though, I feel pretty damn good.  Since I spend a lot of my time in an industry based on illusions and outward beauty, it is easy to notice all of the shortcomings that others believe they have.

Day after day I spend with girls of all ages and they each share just one thing in common… there is something physical about themselves that they hate.  One particular girl that is a real beauty, believes that she is fat.  When I hear her say this, I quickly look around to see if there is actually anyone standing around that is in fact obese.  If they were to hear her say this, they would probably think she has a serious problem, which maybe she does.  If she were to lose any weight she will almost disappear altogether.  Other girls are looking forward to saving up money to get breast implants.  Is there not something better to spend money on.  At 18 or 19, is this the largest goal for you?  Some girls get nose jobs at 16 years of age, like it is a right of passage.  I saw an 8 year old getting a highlight.  Something just does not seem right.

I love beauty and the industry.  It feels good when you know you look good or others are telling you that you are gorgeous.  It just seems like kids are starting out so young these days.  If I were 8 when I had my first highlight, I probably would not have any hair by now.  If I were 16 and had a nose job, it would probably just make me thing there could be other permanent improvements.  If I lost a lot of weight I would lose my curves that I believe are feminine and inviting.

Some days you just wake up and and know that it will be a day that you are not feeling like a goddess, but those are usually days where there are also internal conflicts.  It would be nice to see other girls appreciating themselves more and appreciating other females more.  Instead of being so harsh on ourselves, or other females, we could try a little kindness instead.